Have you seen my childhood?
This is me, What do you think? Cute?
I have been tagged again! Sigh, I am totally hesitant to do this, but I’m doing this for someone who requested that I be more personal in my blog. I don’t know how to get more personal then to tell you about my childhood.
Have you seen my childhood‚Ķ..? I can’t remember much of it. I have been asking myself why for years. I’m also going to share that reminiscing on this is very painful for me. For the past few months all I have been trying to do is forget my past. So for the people who requested this please know I’m shaking inside as I write this. I want to burst into tears but I can’t as there are people around me now‚Ķ.
This is because I cannot look back without travelling through the memories that haunt me. For example in trying to think of this, I was brought to remember that I have a picture that means a lot to me about my childhood. I laminated it nicely and gave it to someone I cared about and now it is gone‚Ķ.I don’t even know how to describe how important that picture is to me. Remembering things of my past somehow doesn’t bring back anything good nowadays.
Here now is another of me. This one is me and my bro. Cute? He was way cuter. Still is.
Delivery:
My nickname was rugby head. So Wen Cheang I think we had a little in common although I was not sucked out I think. It was on March 29th 1983 at 8:30 pm. I made my mom stay in the hospital for more than 12 hours. Too shy to see the world then and I still don’t want to come out. I think I did it just because I love my mom so much.
Name:
It is a simple process as a Chinese member of the family because our surname is ‚ÄòLim’ and ‚ÄòKok’ is what all the boys have on my father’s side. Then the last part of my name is making the Chinese word ‚ÄòWeng Yew’ which means ‚Äòglory’. So I’m ‚ÄòWeng’ and my brother is ‚ÄòYew’. Our names together meaning Country’s Glory. My English name starts with L as all the rest of my family members do. Leonard, Lillian, naturally little Leonard is Leon then came Lionel see the pattern? One thing you should know is I do not love my name. It has brought me great strife because I believe it’s a God given name that I have to live up to.
My Size:
All you have to know is I came out bigger than my brother, I’m not sure how I’ll end up. At the moment He has beaten me in size‚Ķ.I don’t know if I should challenge him anymore. Hehehe
Interests:
Arranging books. That’s what I’m told. Also I was told I sighed a lot and asked questions like
Leon (3yrs): ‚ÄòSigh, sigh’
Mom: Son why are you sighing so loud?
Leon (3yrs): Jesus said He is coming back soon. Why He still haven’t come back wan? (Malaysian style English; indication of my early love for this country)
Other than that I wouldn’t remember much. Because everything in the world fascinates me til today.
My mini Cagiva!
As you can see, certain interests start at a very young age. I certainly had always been born to ride! Wooohooo!
Reactions towards living things:
My mom said the moment I came out, she knew that I was going to be God’s instrument. So somehow when she said that it felt as if I found what I was created for. Therefore my reaction towards living has only found purpose is what God created. I love animals, trees, insects, and practically everything in nature. I learnt to swim since I was a toddler. I was quiet, hated medicine. But I was often sick‚Ķ
Best Friends:
You know what? I made really good friends when I was young. I was friendly, outgoing and so much more but now it is definitely not the case. I remember not much of the friends I had. I do remember their names. Charis Liew (the girl in the middle) who was the same age who is a pretty young lady now. Julie Lim, Jeffery Lim, John Lim ( I heard he has a fine voice). Joshua and Joy Ooi. They were those that grew up with me in BCM now if I may say time has drifted us apart. You know what. Thinking back, those were happier times. Not a care in the world.
Favorite TV Shows:
I can’t remember honestly. Macgyver I guess. Still watching the episodes now
Early Talents:
My mom noticed my music talent. I still am puzzled how. I am deeply thankful to God for that for I would not know what I’d do in life without music‚Ķ.Other than that I was an intellectually curious child. A new term I learnt recently. I couldn’t stop wanting to learn all I can. I taught myself as much as I could and would constantly be observing others to learn. I know this as until now this is how I am. One more thing I had this obsession with Maths. My marks were either 99 or 100 in primary school. Haha . But that is because I liked the teacher. Encik Sabdan. I wish for somebody who can tell me how he is now. I also hope he remembers me. In secondary school, I hated the teacher so no more 99-100 haha. So my talent I found out was scoring A’s for the teachers I love ahhaha. Other than that as the picture below suggests, my other talent was torturing my brother.
Greatest Fear:
My greatest fear was people. Still is‚Ķ.sorry I won’t elaborate because it hurts too much ok? I have spent my life living to people’s expectations and yet they‚Ķ‚ĶI honestly don’t know why people always look at my faults rather than how much I have given my all for them‚Ķ.
I fear being apart from my parents. I know that I fear of how I would never stop crying when separated from my parents. I also know that it is going to happen again. Soon…..only God can tell.
Favorite Foods:
I don’t know. My mom says I hated medicine. I am picky about that I eat but definitely not as picky as Wen Cheang who was a horror to feed.
Bad habits:
Wanted! The ‘Bad Boys’ bald Mafia ‘Lim’ brothers. They look alike today no change!
My mom says I’m an angel until I was in my teens. Other than that I don’t remember
Entertainment:
Looking back, my happiest moments were on my piano. I remember the faint voice of an angel as I would describe singing with me. I miss that so much. I’m tearing now‚Ķ.God forgive me.
This is enough. It truly hurts so much. I don’t want to remember how beautiful it was. It makes it so painful because the state I am in is pathetic. It makes me feel I just can’t be Leon anymore. I started this blog to indicate my new life that indicate that I’m a new creation a new start and new beginning. I no longer want to look back. So my dear friends, if it’s possible, don’t ask me to look back anymore at the mean time ok?
So there you now know a little more about me. I hope you will really cherish your friendships you have. Don’t lose sight of them. Friends are the gift God gives us to represent His grace. Also love them not because of what they do but love them because God loves them. Always remember to be seasoned with love and forgiveness. Remember always the golden rule. Do only to others what you would want them to do to you. God bless you my friends.
I’m not going to tag anyone this time. But I will have fun reading all that you guys write about. To all my friends. You are dear to my heart. Always. I love you guys!
You certainly have the same eyes until now. its impossible to miss!
You know what, I believe its the things in the past that shapes a person to be who they are today, and I just want you to know that you have been a real blessing to me. God certainly has a great plan for you. I’ll be praying for you Leon, so that maybe, just maybe, you’ll be able to look back and still be able to take that step forward.
P.S yes you were very cute as a child. You still are very cute k, in a different way lah…*beam*
Leon said:
What different way? A fat way? Hahaha. I’m honored that you’ll be praying for me and yes your prayers are much coveted.
My eyes…they are too small!! Honestly I don’t know how I’ve blessed you. Haha. I’m just blessed to have a friend lke you. Don’t you ever forget me
Looks like i made you cry huh…………
Didn’t know you didn’t like your childhood so badly……thought it was just the adolescent years. But i think you need to think positive too, if it weren’t for the things that happened in the past you won’t be who you are today… Even your positive attributes could come from bad things………………….
And i don’t remember you looking like that as a child.
Leon said:
What you said is true…but are those in reference to me? Like my positive attributes are something bad??? Heeehee
Its not that I hated it bro…its that thinking back is really hard for me without going through the bad part.
hahhaha your eyes are cute larr… that’s the only distinguishable thing between u and ur bro cos otherwise i can’t recognise.. wow your parents were so young back then… =)
Leon said:
I and my brother are total opposites la. How can be just the eyes. Cute? Not nice la. People like big eyes la
lolz u also talk about childhood..hehe. i oso got a not-so-good childhood..but still appreciates it praise God.=) and bro u are way more better then me..i mean the pictures. the baby pictures of me, i can say, 3 fingers can finish counting. mom says “when u were born, de camera rosak edi..” *sobs sobs..T.T* hmm..3-5years old got some, but not much..
oh ya, ur face is there!xD cute cute~=P
Leon said:
Yes I praise God for I am fearfully and wonderfully made! I also had very few pictures. Mybrother got about three times more. We were too poor when I was small. But my mom was artistic and did take on some photography so she does these stuff. Thank God or else I will have nothing to look back on because I can’t remember
Awww so cute! Love your template by the way… looks so classy!
Leon said:
Haha we have the same eyes right? Hehe. Classy, nice! I like that word. I feel a wee bit better about my taste now hahaha
Wah.. Your old man looks much more handsome when he’s young. Everyone have their own sweet and sour memories. But that doesn’t change the fact the God is good.
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” (Jer 29:11)
This is the verse that has carry me through thick and thin, thru storms and sunny days, thru the darkest hours, thru the valleys and thru it all.
Leon said:
That’s why I still believe in a Happily Ever After. Thanks for the encouraging verse.
Hmm, its really surprising that you wrote about your childhood. Least expected you to do that. It must have hurt you a lot to come up with this post.
But you know what? Give yourself a pat on the back; difficult and tough as it may be for u to write bout it, u still managed to come up with quite an insightful explanation of your childhood.
I am sure it has allowed those who never got a chance to grow up with you to know more about you. The past may not have been all that wonderful but hey…there are better days ahead..So much more in life to look forward to.
Oh and now to comment on the pictures, never imagined you to be so cute. hahaha.. especially on the mini cagiva! oh.. also, u used to smile more. Try smiling more often now and we shall see if you are still as cute. haha…U looked so sad in your first picture..y? but u kno wat..U still looked cute in that picture although it seems as though you were about to cry.
I will always cherish our friendship. Thank you for being such a great friend although we have not known each other for long.
ps: Thank u for this entry. I appreciate your effort. =)
Leon said:
I love my childhood and my parents. There are just things I don’t want to remember. Oh well, I don’t know where I was in the first shot. I don’t remember. Haha
I will always treasure our friendship too
Everyone recognizes my mini Cagiva hehe. Boys never grow up!
*grins*
u were so so so cute.. gosh.. haha.. so what if u’ve got small eyes man.. love ur smile (the one under the title “Name:” and the one on the mini cagiva
it’s the same ones i remember..
take care leon
thoughts n prayer with u..
Leon said:
My eyes were bigger then la I think…I do smile the same right? I was so cute means now not so cute? Hahahaha
Hahaha hi….I think I get what you mean when you said you find it hard to recall the past as yup you have to go through the painful parts….but you did really well presenting yr childhood. And you look really cute…hehe the face is still the same…and yeah i think you smile the same….So smile more k ( you have a nice smile )
Haha i thought the one on yr mini cagiva was cute. Haha I think I have a picture of myself on one too.Haha but i wasn’t born to ride….never given the chance to. hehe….anyway what’s wrong with small eyes ? I never found it a problem…Got eyes to see good lor ….be thankful for it ….haha…better then mine ma..Ppl always accused me of using my big eyes to get what i want when I was younger(my eyes were huge when I was young if you remember ) haha and even now although not so big but still kena accuse of using it to look pitiful or to get what I want …though I don’t remember doing it ….Do I ? Anyway I really think the pictures you posted were lovely and you should keep them properly K……take care buddy !
Leon said:
Buddy! Thats the first I think in my life I have been refered to as buddy. Haha. I am ok with my eyes except for the fact that its almost impossible to fit contacts in for me to play sports. Sigh. haha.
Yes you got my point about recalling the past. Its kinda odd presenting my childhood to the world.
The pictures are fading. Yes I think I should make effort to scan it all in
Uhhhh….. childhood… full of bitterness, sweetness, sourness…
HAHA!!!
Well, so cute huh? Donna’s cuter…
Leon said:
I didn’t say I’m cute la. I ask only. And yes I know you are way cuter. I know. I mean even now you’re like so cute. How not to be when you are young? Haha
I meant the pics last time ler… now opposite i know lah.. eh but small eyes are cute wat… and also less chance of dust or foreign particles getting into your eyes… hahahha..
Leon said:
Also harder for the foreign particles to come out. Right?
not fat lah lar… different meaning not the baby cute way lor.
Cute? Huh… I still can be cute?? Yes, I’m still young but… I’m still prefer pretty. Say me pretty not cute ya… LOLSS
Leon said:
I don’t have to say you are pretty la. You have so many admirers. All lining up for you
wassup leon..
i c ur face from last time untill now like nvr change much… very cute..hahah
now u more handsome than ( Mr.self-obsessed, self claim handsome) pastor mike leong.. =)
Leon said:
He always say I ugly. Haha. But he lucky lor got beautiful wife hor? Hehe.. Thank you for your compliment hahaha. I feel good! But now fatter right? Hahha
Leon:
Admirers lining up for me? For what?!
Proseng, Leon:
By the way, I support Mike Leo.
Leon said:
How I know why? All I know you got alot la. Maybe just to see you, maybe to hear you sing, who knows?
And now we got to challengers here. Proseng careful ya. Woman cannot play play wan.
Leon: I don’t need any admirers, you see??
Why ask Proseng to be careful? Will I eat him?? Hhhmmm… too thin… nothing to eat. Hehe…
Leon said:
Not eat just bite! Hahaha
Yeah you don’t need admirers cause you have admirers
Now I’m afraid if I really bite him I’ll lose my tooth. Still, I support Ps. Mike Leo… haha…
Leon, Leon…
I’m not going to discuss about this topic in here…
Leon said:
Yeah he looks quite hard to swallow too….hahaha. I can just imagine you cheering ‘Mike Leo! Mike Leo!’ so funny