I’m back! Is that good?
Guess what? I promised you a blogpost last night right? And here it is. I mean how late can this be?  It is morning already…Leon…..Haha.
This is a major update as I looked at the amount of blogpost these few months and I was like WHAT? So little? I think I have lost a lot of readers because of that. If you are one of them‚Ķ..please don’t go. I’m back.
I have been getting quite a lot of feedback my posts were all very emotional and well I describe it better as melancholic. I think I was just being too artsy fartsy (melancholic). Hahah. I’ve been really really missing home. The homesickness is due to many factors but in summary, I’m not over that.
Another thing was I dread relationships with people. I’m not a people oriented person. I’m very anti-social. I thank God people don’t perceive me that way because I make extremely a lot of effort not to be like that. I get so drained by the end of the day that I really don’t feel like doing anything anymore. I just need to recuperate. I have been more people oriented in this year than I have in almost my entire life. The things I’ve done, I’ve never imagined I’ll be able to do. I can’t believe some of you actually feedback and say that I’m pastoral. I never thought I was. Thank you. I’m trying hard to be ha ha ha. Such a contradicting person I am.
So over all I’ve just been really getting adjusted to my new life. In fact I just recovered from a bout of flu. Not even fully recovered. And yes it is ‚Äòswine flu’ cause I’m born in the year of a pig and I have a flu hahahah. Ok sorry lame joke.
Now that I’m here, I am so glad for the new people in my life. Friends who care and take care of me. I’m honored. At the same time, I’m feeling this huge pain cause the relationships back home in Malaysia‚Ķ..I’ve lost so many. It hurts extremely bad. I never realized an anti-social person could need friendship so bad. All these lost relationships.
I resolved! No melancholic posts anymore. So I had to take a long long while to get over it. I’m sorry everyone. So WATCH OUT! Now I’m back! I’ll update you all on so much that has happened since. As much as I can. I’ve been sooooo busy. I can post now cause I’m sick hahaha.
So start commenting again please. I miss your comments. I miss all the interaction we’ve had. I MISS YOU ALL.
One thing I noticed in my relatively short time here on earth… relationships that truly matter are never lost. It’s just put on hold, put in frozen storage for a while. At the reunion, you just start again as if you were never gone.
I think I’m confusing people (and myself) but I hope someone knows what I’m trying to say.
Leon said:
I know that to be true in some cases and not all. There are always those that drift away with distance and time. You however are someone I’ll always treasure in my heart
welome back Leon! always enjoy reading ur blog
Leon said:
Thank you Mel!!
got prompted since last night to pop by and see how your blog write-ups has been and read this. Wow, you sound sad
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Leon said:
I’m not sad, I’m so much more appreciative of what I have
I agree with Adino and no, Adino, you aren’t confusing…not me at least
True with distance and time, relationships changed but with a bit of effort the ties will still be there.
Leon said:
Both of you are always dear to me no matter what?