I thought this picture was very beautiful

In my head, I was planning to stop blogging for a month. Then it seems that God is speaking so clearly into my situations that I have to resume what I’m doing immediately.

First it was this weekend that I had to conduct the choir for a special song. Without realizing, I missed the message from God to me all this time. The title of the song is ‘When Answers aren’t enough’. Man that hit home! I was asking so many questions which really had no answers. And part of the chorus says this; When answers aren’t enough, There is Jesus,¬† When Answers aren’t enough, He is there.

Ok ok no more questioning I thought to myself last night. Just go on. Then here I am waking up in the morning, committing my life before the Lord listening to His word being preached. Feeling rather overwhelmed by what is ahead when I was given a parting gift. See someone here in the church is leaving to serve God elsewhere. It has been difficult as all the raw emotion of me leaving my home was constantly playing back all the time as this person walks through this period of his leaving.

I cried quietly so many times as I just never showed the pain of leaving when I was back home. Being here has been tough emotionally for me. Oh ya, back to the parting gift. Well he has a huge collection of pigs! And well I’m a pig too! We are both born in the year of the pig! Only thing is, he is 24 years my senior. For those of you who don’t know? The Chinese Lunar calendar has animals allocated for each year rotating every 12 years. We are not superstitious but we kind of like being associated with the animal sometimes.

So¬† here we are expecting him to give all the pigs away because its probably to tough to bring it all where he is going. And we were given lots to draw. I was number ’39′. So its like oh ok…all random and so I went down to collect my pig when it struck harder when I saw which pig I got. See the pic below.

So cute hor? Like me?

Of all pigs I got this one. Do you really think it is a coincidence? I was like no way…..Ok ok God, I get Your message. I get it. So here I am blogging because I realize this is something I should do. Having you all reading and encouraging me to know that this blog matters. Ok ok maybe I presume it does only haha because there hasn’t been much comments when I announced I’m stopping……and the number of visitors also declined…..

Oh well, I think it don’t matter how I feel, I blog for the Lord, for myself and for YOU (anyone willing to read ). I don’t think I’m meant to be sooooo gloom anymore. Though I’m very very sad that a good friend is deleting his blog and also some other bad and worse news I’ve been getting. I think there is no point for me to be so down anymore. It’s time to move forward! It is time to resume blogging! Hope that brings a cheer to some!