A month back….yes I know this is way overdue but I have to write about it because of two reasons.

Reason 1:

I was going through my organizer then realised that I haven’t handed in my assignment for bible college that I was to complete after attending this seminar. Only after I open it did I realise that I was to hand it in at 3pm at it was already 630pm. I’m so in trouble. So as I opened up the file, then I saw to my surprise that I typed a response to God in those moments of Him speaking to me.

I was so moved during some of the sessions that I just wrote this (below) when Gary Haugen spoke. Not only that, I bought all his books that were available there. So thinking about the seminar I have to write about what I experienced. Do you all want me to post what I wrote for my assignments? Its a summary and review of what I learnt.

Reason 2:

It is a yearly seminar that I have attended for two years in a row now. I will be attending the next two years too because I’m going to host it in my church and basically, I am put responsible for it in a way. Creatively speaking I’m excited. Reality wise, I am dumbfounded by all the limitations we are given.

Still this seminar is one I will not miss. This year was just pheonomenal for me. It was just so crystal clear to me in those moments why I had been created. Why God made me who I am and placed me where I am at. I would encourage those who want to have a bigger perspective on life to attend this seminar though it says it is for leaders. All of us are leaders in our own ways I believe. Some with more responsibilities than ourselves.

Well last year it made a huge difference in my life. This year even more. Next year I pressume I will be leaping in excitement or maybe collapsing in exhaustion hahaha.

So here it is anyway, what I wrote:

God, I finally understand what you have been speaking to me. I know what matters to you now and what matters to me. I finally understand what my heart has been fighting so hard to understand. Why I have found no satisfaction in what I do.

You have planted this seed into my heart ever since I was a little boy. I have felt this in me all my life. I was afraid. I was scared. It seemed hopeless. It seemed difficult. I now know why I’m moved inside of me when I see what’s happening in the world. I know exactly what my holy discontent is now.
Injustice!

I can’t stand to see it all fall apart and the world being so messed up when you are a good God and that you gave us hope. You gave me hope. A life to live. The best things I could have imagined.

I want to write songs. Songs that will show people Your heart for the poor, the needy, the weak, the broken, the sick, the hungry, and so much more. I can’t sit here and do nothing. I want to write about what truly matters to You. I must do something. I’m tired because I have not done enough yet. Just not enough