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We meet again ‘e – very – one’. The circle is now complete. *choke*choke*¬†¬†¬† *wheeeeeezzeeee*

He he. I’m back!

Yes blogging will resume at last. Cause now at least I can see better. For those of you who have been concern, I’m better now. Things are still blur but I can manage much better now. I think and hope it will all be back to normal soon.

A lot has happened in this past two weeks. I think I could have done 20 posts with what has happened. I think I will try to write a little by little of what happened. A dear friend, colleague and fellow laborer in the field has left to be with the Lord and it has been rather difficult for me to deal with it. Honestly though we have only known each other for such a short period, I still grieve losing him. I will tell you all more when I have wrestled through this pain.

Remember I told you all that there were two things I am so happy about? Well I’m losing grip of the second thing. I feel in fact I have lost it totally. That brings greater grief to my soul. It has been really dark inside. Still the light and hope God gives has carried me through. This season is a season of hope. Tonight I will be conducting the choir at Orchard Road. I hope we do really well!

Yesterday I received SUPER GREAT news! It was news that is probably the best in the world now to me! Things have been so painful and this is indeed something I’m so happy for. Brother, congratulations! You have the one thing I really desire. All the things I have are really just meaningless. But you have received the best in the entire world.

This news was the best news to me yet it is also the hardest to receive at the moment. In fact it multiplies the pain a huge lot. Because I’m just going through a moment that no words can describe. This tension of Joy and Hope contrasting with the pain and despair is certainly amazing. Man, I hate being an artist.

Still it is a season of celebration! The Lord is Come! What a great season to remember it is not about how I feel but what He has done! Oooooo Christmas! What a great time of the Year! It’s the most wonderful time of the Year!