I know that it doesn’t sound quite right….but story goes like this. I was pulling myself out of bed (again) because I had to take a ridiculously long ride to church. It takes me one and a half hours to get to church on sunday. I could drive to Ipoh from Kuala Lumpur!!

So there I am early in the morning ironing my clothes and then after that having my nice warm shower until the hot water supply runs out. And off I go on the ridiculously long trip across the Island to Grace II.

For some of you who don’t know. There are two building in this church. Grace I and Grace II. Most of the time I work in Grace I but I serve in Grace II. Confusing yet? Haha. Grace I is an hour from my place and Grace II is an hour and a half.

This is Grace II Sanctuary

We had our service and then after that while having some discussion, I took off my tie. I hate wearing ties. I mean how to feel good with something against your throat….. Oh well I placed it in my shirt pocket and TA DA! I found a RM 50 note in my pocket! I gleamed with joy.

How many of you have experienced this?? I mean this is like the gazzillionth time its happen to me but still it makes me so happy. I always have clothes which I kind of don’t wear for sometime because I always take the one on top of the pile (typical guy?). So now I have limited clothings. I took a shirt I haven’t wore for ages to wear and what a pleasant surprise.

I must start going through my old clothes. So many are back home…..I may become rich soon hahaa. Anyway I’m a happy man now. So easily pleased.

At last behold it is within my grasp!!! Muahahaha

Since even only a few requested I do a review, I believe in the minority vote a lot of times too so therefore I am attempting to write a review that will suite my readers. There are ample techie reviews out there but I want to help you guys see why phone choices are important and how a phone can compliment the user in a very unique way.

Warning! This review is awfully detailed and has a long explanatory of everything. Please proceed if you can read without falling asleep Read the rest of this entry »

I must say I have not really contributed serious written articles like I used to. Time is certainly the factor here. There is also the fact that I am not sure if my readers actually like reading them.

Still I will attempt to do so even now as I believe that there are serious issues that are looming over us and we are not serious enough. If you do not know what is happening in Malaysia right now, I think you are in danger of being a person who is too ignorant. I know politics is not something you are interested in and neither am I really interested but with the current issues at hand. I believe we should do something. Many will ask, what can we really do?

I was so convicted by the sharing by an elderly minister in our staff devotion today. I mean God has been doing things around the world and most of us aren’t aware of it. But he said this one things that struck me. Not that I have never heard it before…..I mean my parents keep reminding me and telling me the same thing but I just never let it set in my heart.

Honestly I put a wall around myself. I was so upset with so many people that live double standard lives. Compromising our faith and yet be given so much recognition and fame. I just hardly see people worth admiring at all. So I tell myself, I must live a life that is flawless. I must meet the expectations and rise to the occasion. Set myself as a person who can stand up and say follow me as a follow Christ. That was my lifelong resolution at 12 years of age. At 15 when I decided to accept my calling after a huge battle with myself, I started on a journey that has taken me 10 years to understand (I am so stubborn huh? Ha ha).

I do not claim to have full understanding of it yet but I certainly am going to change that resolution. I noticed the harder I push myself, the harder I push others. I get so upset when others fail at the most simple tasks which they can obviously do. Little did I realize that I was looking at the reflection of myself everyday. I’ve failed I must say. I’ve failed miserably. To an extent which I am ashamed to even talk about to the closest people in my life.

This shame and guilt and horrific failure of mine reached its climax not too long back to a point that I felt like dying. It seemed so dark. I was just crawling and begging and though the world was spinning round in all its splendor everything was just a mono color to me. Black.

It was to a point that I was crying God please don’t go away but stay away from me because I am not worthy to be near you. I will die in Your presence. For half a year or more now God has been trying so hard to tell me something. No actually for 10 years now God has been trying to tell me this. Leon, I have chosen you and I have called you by name. Yes simple right? Let me elaborate if I may. I just didn’t get it. I thought that if God chose me, I have to live like some perfect guy in order to fulfill His will. Little did I know that through these 10 years I have done the most atrocious things I could imagine and lost so many things I have held on dearly to my life.

You see I forgot the capital ‘I’ in the calling. The ‘I’ was not me but God. The bible clearly states that our righteousness is in God. It is He that makes us pure and holy. All these years, I tried to be exceptional and it was my works. I’m not saying that we should not do works. I am not saying that we shouldn’t work hard to do our best. But I certainly did my best but that righteousness I was trying to achieve was of my own. In the end, what is the point? Can a man save himself?

Now I get it, each time I do the most horrible things in life, I repent and everything and God blesses me still in amazing ways as you can see on my blog. I never was happy about it. I always condemned myself and lived in defeat. But you know what, I shall fear no more. It is not my kingdom, nor ministry. It is not my name but God’s name. It is not mine, it’s God’s. So as long as He has counted me worthy, I will live as if I am. It is tough as I am haunted constantly by these past things and even present mistakes and I’m sure they will continue to haunt me for the rest of my life and ministry.

I am not going to let others who condemn me for my sins ever stop me from saving the lost. Loving the people close to God’s heart. Honestly people need the Lord and I am wasting time moaning and groaning while there are loads of kids dying and getting raped daily. Wars happening. Again either I could stay here and ask the stupid question what can I do? Or do something. There are bigger matters in this world than ‘me’ and I’m going to do something, I can’t bear to see a child that is as beautiful as that (the picture) die tomorrow maybe even today while I’m moaning and groaning about how sinful I am and not realizing that my righteousness is in God not my actions. Do you know the statistics? It’s frightening. As I typed this blog many kids have died! People need to know that God loves them this much too. I will no longer be the best on my own accord but I will be the best because my God is the best and He loves us, all of us. He is also coming back soon. I just have to do anything I can.

My heart burns when I see pictures like these. God I am willing use me!

In the end though I only know two things in life. Jesus Loves Me this I know, and I love Him too. That’s all that matters. If I truly love Him then what am I waiting for? Do you know Him?

In the quietness of time

Through the vastness of Your grace

I know nothing, I know nothing

You know everything

I ran stubbornly

You waited patiently

Letting me know, Letting me know

You’re all I need to grow

I now see it

And I now will do it

So they’ll know, And it’ll show

That Jesus You’re all they need to know.

I know nothing,

But I know everything,

Because Jesus loves me so

And His everlasting love for me shows

Now this album is not that new but I never saw it in Malaysia. It came out in 2004 and I thought, well why not! I put the CD into my computer, jacked it into my monitor speakers and this cutest voice began to play. They really gave a huge punch to the beginning of this album to kick listeners in. I love that.

You see two individuals there but it is the lady who sings. Very nice sweet tone, folk like in texture and has a wonderful soft falsetto to her voice. I was mesmerized by her voice for quite some time. The album has a very nice flow to it all credit to the wonderful mastering done! You will generally see flow that is somewhat like how a worship leader would arrange their songs. Lyrically and musically I hardly noticed the pauses in between tracks when I was just getting lost in the songs.

I will say that some songs even have the potential to be used in our worship service. The range, the lyrics and melody works! They even give a full lead sheet with the CD! I am so amazed. I mean not a chord chart but a full LEAD SHEET! Wow!

I am so captured by the first song! My Covering. Even the second songs chorus just makes me want to sing. Somehow it just sticks in my head. The songs get more reflective on who God is and is just so moving to direct us to just marvel at God. Other tracks like ‘The Glory of Your Name’ and ‘You Come as You are’ are magnificent examples of what great worship songs should be like. ‘Captivate Us’ really captivated me though it was so simply acoustically arranged.

It is a pop gospel album and is probably too sweet for some. Honestly it isn’t so to me though. This album as far I know would be what my youth will like. Now I am not rating these album biased because I bought them not knowing how good they are except for knowing them with some song in the past. This album far supersedes my expectations. Don’t miss this album and start singing some of these songs in your churches! Just a suggestion because these songs have a more contemporary feel to them.

This album Christian Music Today says is their best album so far. They were writing songs and trying to write original songs for some time and I didn’t like their albums then. They recently decided to switch back to worship songs! It’s a wonderful decision as I miss worship songs that are so lyrically beautiful.

Rating : 9/10

I got the Samsung Omnia…..oooooo the phone is sooooooo nice! It’s by far the coolest phone I have ever owned and probably in the world right now in the market! Should I do a review on it? Anyone interested?

Apparently that when you are friends with someone you do things you usually won’t do. In fact, you’ll go places you never go. In fact we would die for them. Gladly lay our lives down for them. But we will never bow before them am I right? Hahaha

Oh well I was thinking I would add an extra to that, you would even blog a tag for them! Hahaha

I guess people want to know more that’s why they tag you but what if we refuse to do? I mean should I get offended if you don’t accept my tag? Hahaha

Oh well, this is for my dear friend whom I miss so much. My blogging Si Fu whom I owe this blog to (thats why no matter how much I don’t want I must pretend to be honored he tagged me). Oops did I type that out? Hehe. Here it goes!

1. To watch or to participate?

I am a keen observer. So watch out I’m not only watching I’m listening. I tend to pick things up visually and be able to reconcile all the details in my head without trying it out. That helped me learn throughout my younger ‘anti-social’ years. BUT now I realise I learn more when I am involved with people. I do not learn about the thing we are doing but I learn about the person. It fascinates me that we are so very different in many ways yet so much connects us as humans. Many of life’s greatest and most important skills cannot be learnt by just observation that is my conclusion. Therefore now I participate…..but be careful, I’m watching you.

2. Malls, catalog shopping, or the Internet?

I love catalogs. I can read specifications for hours. Then when I found the thing I like, I just search on the internet for the best place to get it. Run into the mall and get it then run out! I’m more like a 3-in-1 come to think of it. Hahhaa

3. A bath or shower?

Adino’s creativity to try to make every answer a poem is driving me crazy. How could he do that? Oh well, I will just answer straight forwardly. I love showers. HOT showers. Hot until it steams up the entire bathroom. I could stay there for hours. I usually take these showers in the morning. Ah!!! Just had one this morning.

4. To talk to people by telephone, in person or by email?

Phone…I believe that is the medium in which least miscommunication can happen in my context. I believe that to be the case only when people are clear communicators la. Still it provides the means for the most effective communication in our culture where people hardly have the time to meet.

In person though is the ideal that I would prefer.

5. Typing or writing?

I can’t write for longer than 30 mins now. It hurts like mad….I have only a few pens and the latest gift was from the Ang Family which I am so thankful for as it so useful to me now. So typing is the answer thought then I do music compositions, I prefer writing somehow the flow of ideas are better

Bikerz Adventures is over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I mean how to have bikerz adventurez when I don’t have a bike anymore. More painful still I’m reading about others enjoying my bike….sob sob so sorry to my dear readers…

I’m praying hard that somehow this bike below will be cheap and I will be able to get it over here.

Also I think I am going to fail on keeping to my earlier decision. I will be getting this phone on monday. they made an offer I couldn’t resist…..its everything I wish for in a phone!!

Samsung Omnia 16GB

Oh Leon how blessed you are to be able to dream of such things!

Mike please do take care of my bike…pleassssssssssssssseeeeeeeee

I am a little too much ain’t I?

To follow Jesus! No turning back! No turning Back!

No No I’m writing not because of the song but because I have decided at last which phone I will get this Monday. The process of making the wisest decision possible has led me through hours of agonizing brain storming. At last I can just forget it.

I have decided to get this!

You may ask why I made such a decision after all the agony of posting about the other phones. Well I had decided to get the N82 after being convinced by my readers that it was a better choice. All ready to go for it I checked once again and they were out of stock! To my dismay then I would just have to go for the LG KS20. Looking at the specs though I couldn’t find it in my heart to buy something just because it looks good. Practically it has all the same functions as the one above but the one above is free. Since I am in a very tight financial state I opted to save money. I hear people cheering! Thank You! Thank You!

So the official announcement is now made. I am going to get the HTC Touch Dual this Monday (unless they have no stock…sigh). For those of you interested you can check the specs out by clicking on the link.

Tommy Emmanuel - Angelina

It may surprise many of you to know this fact, but I have never had my own guitar all my life. This is honestly one of my greatest desires. I have been having the urge to hold a guitar for the past week. It is killing me not to be able to hear the sound of the strings. I have always just picked up the church one to just let it out. But today I needed to post about this because I honestly am so sad that I cannot play one now. Never before have I had such a craving.

The huge issue is, I never got a guitar because I cannot stand cheap one for their sound and also their touch. The one I really want will be impossible to own. Realistically there are some that are within reach in the next 2 years but I can’t wait that long!! I have waited all my life!

What to do oh what to do. I want to hear the sweet melodies. I want to smell the wood. Ah. Oh God please somehow grant my hearts desire. I know You have blessed me so much but I just want to worship You with a guitar each day. Please oh Please.

I was unable to procure a new album here in Singapore when I wrote this. So at the moment, maybe a little retro-album ok?

I wanted to introduce to you all one of the most lyrically meaningful album I have come across. Butterfly Kisses (Shades of Grace) - Bob Carlisle. His life testimony and how God has led him is pretty spectacular. He formally was from the band ‘Allies’ that was typically not where you would think a singer like him came from. It was heavy rock during the era.

God had led him to the point where he wrote this song ‘Butterfly Kisses’ which was inspired by his daughter Brooke. This album is now 14-15 years old and I still hear it many times. Someone believed in him and produced his album, not knowing that it would lead to him having won a Grammy Award in 1997 for the Best Country Song and a Dove Award. Since then he has been nominated for 8 Dove awards and has sold more than 3 million albums! Read the rest of this entry »

Today was really kind of odd. Haha! I started serving in church this week and therefore this Sunday was the first Sunday I went on stage to help. Most of the time I’m down stage for the moment. So I just stood there and worshiped God with all my heart seeking for answers to many of my questions. I was having huge trouble reconciling certain issues in my heart.

There I was standing asking God why, when the pre-service prayer leader read a passage. It felt as if the world was lifted of my shoulder! God was so clearly speaking to me. These few days I missed Him and honestly I was asking God for a tangible feeling of knowing He is there, and there He was all the time beside me. Saying son, I forgive you.

The culture here is quite different. Actually each church has their own character. I wanted so much to fit in. For those of you who don’t know, I am serving in Singapore now. In Grace Assembly Singapore which has nothing to do in affiliation with Grace Assembly KL (Klang) in anyway except we are all part of the body of Christ. Haha

I will take more pictures of the church when they paint finish ok? Now they are in the process of repainting the building. Here are some pictures though

This is part of Grace 1 as there are two buildings. I will describe more next time. This is where my office is.

This is the Hall of Grace 2 in which I will be in charge of the worship. Yes, the church is huge compared to where I was in KL

Now the oddest part was yet to come…..I was there in the second service worshiping when I turned to my right and there he stood. Someone I knew was in the congregation, but I didn’t search for and just happened to see….it was Read the rest of this entry »

I think I have finally nailed it down to this two phones. I still cannot decide. I am asserting that these two are the ONLY choices left because I had gone through hundreds of phones!!

I will be posting their specs page and also their reviews. I can’t decide honestly. Help me choose. Please Vote, Please! These reviews are very detailed and good.

Nokia N82 - specs or review

LG KS20 - specs or review

Food Rush!! Don’t Push!!

The day had finally come for me to say goodbye. I was reluctant as I have now found family so dear. Yes, never had I had truly understand what it was to truly have a family of God until these people came into my life. I’m honored they loved me, accepted me and even respected me. Read the rest of this entry »